how i find heaven

Sunday, December 27, 2009

Blessing of the Old Woman, the Tulip, and the Dog


Alicia Suskin Ostriker

To be blessed
said the old woman
is to live and work
so hard
God's love
washes right through you
like milk through a cow

To be blessed
said the dark red tulip
is to knock their eyes out
with the slug of lust
implied by
your up-ended
skirt

To be blessed
said the dog
is to have a pinch
of God
inside you
and all the other dogs
can smell it

From The Book of Seventy. © University of Pittsburgh Press, 2009

Going to Bed


George Bilgere

I check the locks on the front door
and the side door,
make sure the windows are closed
and the heat dialed down.
I switch off the computer,
turn off the living room lights.

I let in the cats.

Reverently, I unplug the Christmas tree,
leaving Christ and the little animals
in the dark.

The last thing I do
is step out to the back yard
for a quick look at the Milky Way.

The stars are halogen-blue.
The constellations, whose names
I have long since forgotten,
look down anonymously,
and the whole galaxy
is cartwheeling in silence through the night.

Everything seems to be ok.

From Haywire. © Utah State University Press, 2006

December


Gary Johnson

A little girl is singing for the faithful to come ye
Joyful and triumphant, a song she loves,
And also the partridge in a pear tree
And the golden rings and the turtle doves.
In the dark streets, red lights and green and blue
Where the faithful live, some joyful, some troubled,
Enduring the cold and also the flu,
Taking the garbage out and keeping the sidewalk shoveled.
Not much triumph going on here—and yet
There is much we do not understand.
And my hopes and fears are met
In this small singer holding onto my hand.
Onward we go, faithfully, into the dark
And are there angels singing overhead? Hark.

Friday, December 25, 2009

For Warmth


Thich Nhat Hanh

I hold my face between my hands
no I am not crying
I hold my face between my hands
to keep my loneliness warm

two hands protecting
two hands nourishing
two hands to prevent

my soul from leaving me
in anger

Tourists


Sherman Alexie
(excerpt)

3. Marilyn Monroe
drives herself to the reservation. Tired and cold,
she asks the Indian women for help.
Marilyn cannot explain what she needs
but the Indian women notice the needle tracks
on her arms and lead her to the sweat lodge
where every woman, young and old, disrobes
and leaves her clothes behind
when she enters the dark of the lodge.
Marilyn's prayers may or may not be answered here
but they are kept sacred by Indian women.
Cold water is splashed on hot rocks
and steam fills the lodge. There is no place like this.
At first, Marilyn is self-conscious, aware
of her body and face, the tremendous heat, her thirst
and the brown bodies circled around her.
But the Indian women do not stare. It is dark
inside the lodge. The hot rocks glow red
and the songs begin. Marilyn has never heard
these songs before, but she soon sings along.
Marilyn is not Indian. Marilyn will never be Indian
but the Indian women sing about her courage.
The Indian women sing for her health.
The Indian women sing for Marilyn.
Finally, she is no more naked than anyone else.


Sunday, December 13, 2009

Today, Like Every Other Day


Rumi

Today, like every other day, we wake up empty
and frightened. Don't open the door to the study
and begin reading. Take down a musical instrument.

Let the beauty we love be what we do.
There are hundreds of ways to kneel and kiss the ground.

I Am Not I


Juan Ramo'n Jime'nez
translated from the Spanish by Robert Bly

I am not I.
I am this one
Walking beside me whom I do not see,
Whom at times I manage to visit,
And whom at other times I forget;
The one who remains silent when I talk,
The one who forgives, sweet, when I hate,
The one who takes a walk where I am not,
The one who will remain standing when I die.

Sweet Darkness


David Whyte
(excerpt)

Sometimes it takes darkness and the sweet
confinement of your aloneness
to learn

anything or anyone
that does not bring you alive

is too small for you.

Friday, December 11, 2009

For the Anniversary of my Death


W.S. Merwin

Every year without knowing it I have passed the day
When the last fires will wave to me
And the silence will set out
Tireless traveler
Like the beam of a lightless star

Then I will no longer
Find myself in life as in a strange garment
Surprised at the earth
And the love of one woman
And the shamelessness of men
As today writing after three days of rain
Hearing the wren sing and the falling cease
And bowing not knowing to what.

A Book of Luminous Things, Edited by Czeslaw Milosz,
Harcourt Publishing, 1996, pg. 221

Morning


Yannis Ritsos
translated from the Greek by Nikos Stangos

She opened the shutters. She hung the sheets over the sill.
She saw the sky.
A bird looked at her straight in the eyes. "I am alone," she whispered.
"I am alive." She entered the room. The mirror too is a window.
If I jump from it I will fall into my arms.

On the Back of a Photograph


Ja'nos Pilinszky
translated from the Hungarian by Peter Jay

Hunched I make my way, uncertainly.
The other hand is only three years old.
An eighty-year-old hand and a three-year-old.
We hold each other. We hold each other tight.

From Staying Alive, Real Poems for Unreal Times,
Miramax Books, 2003

Lightenings


Seamus Heaney

(excerpt)

The annals say: when the monks of Clonmacnoise
Were all at prayers inside the oratory
A ship appeared above them in the air.

The anchor dragged along behind so deep
It hooked itself into the altar rails
And then, as the big hull rocked to a standstill,

A crewman shinned and grappled down the rope
And struggled to release it. But in vain.
"This man can't bear our life here and will drown,"

The abbot said, "unless we help him." So
They did, the freed ship sailed, and the man climbed back
Out of the marvelous as he had known it.

From Staying Alive, Real Poems for Unreal Times,
Miramax Books, 2003

Naked


Jennifer Michael Hecht

The reason you so often in literature have a naked woman
walk out of her house that way, usually older, in her front garden
or on the sidewalk, oblivious, is because of exactly how I feel right
now.

You tend to hear about how it felt to come upon such a mythical
beast,
the naked woman on the street, the naked man in a tree, and that
makes
sense because it is wonderful to take the naked woman by the
hand

And know that you will remember that moment for the rest of
your life
because of what it means, the desperation, the cataclysm of what
it takes
to leave your house naked or to take off your clothes in a tree.

It feels good to get the naked man to come down from there by a
series
of gentle commands and take him by the elbow or her by the hand
and
lead him to his home like you would care for a bird or a human
heart.

Still, if you want instead, for once, to hear about how the person
came to be
standing there, naked, outside, you should talk to me right now,
quickly,
before I forget the details of this way that I feel. I feel like walking
out.

Things


Lisel Mueller

What happened is, we grew lonely
living among the things,
so we gave the clock a face,
the chair a back,
the table four stout legs
which will never suffer fatigue.

We fitted our shoes with tongues
as smooth as our own
and hung tongues inside bells
so we could listen
to their emotional language,

and because we loved graceful profiles
the pitcher received a lip,
the bottle a long, slender neck.

Even what was beyond us
was recast in our image;
we gave the country a heart,
the storm an eye,
the cave a mouth
so we could pass into safety.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Snowbound


Natasha Lynne Vogdes

There is a time to stop traveling...
to get off other people's subways
to halt airplanes from landing in your life.

A time to refuel yourself.

A time to be snowbound
within your private space
where the only number you dial
is your own.

Dawn Revisited


Rita Dove

Imagine you wake up
with a second chance. The blue jay
hawks his pretty wares
and the oak still stands, spreading
glorious shade. If you don't look back,

the future never happens.
How good to rise in sunlight,
in the prodigal smell of biscuits--
eggs and sausage on the grill.
The whole sky is yours

to write on, blown open
to a blank page. Come on,
shake a leg! You'll never know
who's down there, frying those eggs,
if you don't get up and see.

Teaching a Child the Art of Confession


David Shumate

It is best not to begin with Adam and Eve. Original Sin is
baffling, even for the most sophisticated minds. Besides,
children are frightened of naked people and apples. Instead,
start with the talking snake. Children like to hear what animals
have to say. Let him hiss for a while and tell his own tale.
They'll figure him out in the end. Describe sin simply as those
acts which cause suffering and leave it at that. Steer clear of
musty confessionals. Children associate them with outhouses.
Leave Hell out of the discussion. They'll be able to describe it
on their own soon enough. If they feel the need to apologize
for some transgression, tell them that one of the offices of the
moon is to forgive. As for the priest, let him slumber a while
more.

The Rider


Naomi Shihab Nye

A boy told me
if he roller-skated fast enough
his loneliness couldn't catch up to him,

the best reason I ever heard
for trying to be a champion.

What I wonder tonight
pedaling hard down King William Street
is if it translates to bicycles.

A victory! To leave your loneliness
panting behind you on some street corner
while you float free into a cloud of sudden azaleas,
pink petals that have never felt loneliness,
no matter how slowly they fell.

Apothecary, in Time of Joy


Phil West

Give your old love letters over
to the fire. There is nothing
that can come of them now.

If you keep them, though, take the praises
and petal them together, in such a way
that I love you simply becomes you are loved,

and all the kisses you collected become
radium as the Curies knew it:
light rested in the palms,

fingertips touching,
a mystery housed
in hands.

Regard the sun as a rare thing
that has come out for you. Use
words like phoenix and resurrection, and believe them.

Be with the cherry trees in the courtyard
in spring, the Japanese Rorschach
of pink and white on the skeletons

you have been avoiding all winter.
Pick your heart out of the branches,
and let it rest. There.

People Like Us


Robert Bly

There are more like us. All over the world
There are confused people, who can't remember
The name of their dog when they wake up, and
people
Who love God but can't remember where

He was when they went to sleep. It's
Alright. The world cleanses itself this way.
A wrong number occurs to you in the middle
Of the night, you dial it, it rings just in time

To save the house. And the second-story man
Gets the wrong address, where the insomniac lives,
And he's lonely, and they talk, and the thief
Goes back to college. Even in graduate school,

You can wander into the wrong classroom,
And hear great poems lovingly spoken
By the wrong professor. And you find your soul
And greatness has a defender, and even in death
you're safe

Postscript


Seamus Heaney

And some time make the time to drive out west
Into County Clare, along the Flaggy Shore,
In September or October, when the wind
And the light are working off each other
So that the ocean on one side is wild
With foam and glitter, and inland among stones
The surface of a slate-grey lake is lit
By the earthed lightening of a flock of swans,
Their feathers roughed and ruffling, white on white,
Their fully-grown headstrong-looking heads
Tucked or cresting or busy underwater.
Useless to think you'll park or capture it
More thoroughly. You are neither here or there,
A hurry through which known and strange things pass
As big soft buffetings come at the car sideways
And catch the heart off guard and blow it open

From Staying Alive, Real Poems for Unreal Times,
Miramax Books, 2003


Wednesday, December 9, 2009

Watching the Moon


Izumi Shikibu (974? - 1034?)
translated from the Japanese by Jane Hirshfield and Mariko Aratani

Watching the moon
at midnight,
solitary, mid-sky,
I knew myself completely,
no part left out.

From Women in Praise of the Sacred,
42 Centuries of Spiritual Poetry by Women,
HarperCollins, 1995





In the Book of Beauty


Bibi Hayati (? - 1853, Persia, now Iran)
(excerpt)

In the book of beauty, is this the first line?
Or merely a fragment I scribble, tracing your eyebrows?

Is this boxwood gathered in the orchard, or the rose garden's
cypress?
The Tree of Paradise, heavy with dates, or the shape of your
standing?

Is this scent from a Chinese deer, or the fragrance of infused water?
Is it the breathing of roses carried on the wind, or your perfume? [...]

Is this magic, or a chalice of red wine at dawn?
Your narcissus eye drunk with the way, or a sorcerer's work?

Is it the garden of Eden, or some earthly paradise?
The temple of those who have mastered the heart, or an alley?

From Women in Praise of the Sacred,
42 Centuries of Spiritual Poetry by Women,
HarperCollins, 1995

On Foot I Had to Walk Through the Solar Systems


Edith Sodergran (1892-1923)
translated from the Swedish by Stina Katchadourian

On foot
I had to walk through the solar systems,
before I found the first thread of my red dress.
Already, I sense myself.
Somewhere in space hangs my heart,
sparks fly from it, shaking the air,
to other reckless hearts.

From Women in Praise of the Sacred,
42 Centuries of Spiritual Poetry by Women,
HarperCollins, 1995

Resurrection


Vladimi'r Holan
translated from the Czech by George Theiner

Is it true that after this life of ours we shall one day be awakened
by a terrifying clamor of trumpets?
Forgive me, God, but I console myself
that the beginning and resurrection of all us dead
will simply be announced by the crowing of the cock.
After that we will remain lying down a while...
The first to get up
will be Mother...We'll hear her
quietly laying the fire,
quietly putting the kettle on the stove
and cosily taking the teapot out of the cupboard.
We'll be home once more.

Gate C22


Ellen Bass

At gate C22 in the Portland airport
a man in a broad-band leather hat kissed
a woman arriving from Orange County.
They kissed and kissed and kissed. Long after
the other passengers clicked the handles of their carry-ons
and wheeled briskly toward short-term parking,
the couple stood there, arms wrapped around each other
like she'd just staggered off the boat at Ellis Island,
like she'd been released from ICU, snapped
out of a coma, survived bone cancer, made it down
from Annapurna in only the clothes she was wearing.

Neither of them was young. His beard was gray.
She carried a few extra pounds you could imagine
her saying she had to lose. But they kissed lavish
kisses like the ocean in the early morning,
the way it gathers and swells, sucking
each rock under, swallowing it
again and again. We were all watching--
passengers waiting for the delayed flight
to San Jose, the stewardesses, the pilots,
the aproned woman icing Cinnabons, the man selling
sunglasses. We couldn't look away. We could
taste the kisses crushed in our mouths.

But the best part was his face. When he drew back
and looked at her, his smile soft with wonder, almost
as if he were a mother still open from giving birth,
as your mother must have looked at you, no matter
what happened after--if she beat you or left you or
you're lonely now--you once lay there, the vernix
not yet wiped off, and someone gazed at you
as you were the first sunrise seen from the Earth.
The whole wing of the airport hushed,
all of us trying to slip into that woman's middle-
aged body,
her plaid Bermuda shorts, sleeveless blouse, glasses,
little gold hoop earrings, tilting our heads up.


Monday, December 7, 2009

A Haiku


Issa

I'm going out,
flies, so relax,
make love.
        

Having It Out with Melancholy


Jane Kenyon
(excerpt)

The dog searches until he finds me
upstairs, lies down with a clatter
of elbows, puts his head on my foot.

Sometimes the sound of his breathing
saves my life--in and out, in
and out: a pause, a long sigh...



Sunday, December 6, 2009

In Memory of George Lewis, Great Jazzman


Lou Lipsitz
(excerpt)

Alright. There is a frailness
in all our music.
Sometimes we're broken
and it's lost.
Sometimes we forget
for years it's even in us, heads
filled with burdens and smoke.
And sometimes we've held
to it, and it's there,
waiting to break out
walking back from the end.

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Love Is


May Swenson

a rain of diamonds
in the mind

the soul's fruit
sliced in two

a dark spring
loosed at the lips of light

under-earth waters
unlocked from their lurking
to sparkle in a crevice
parted by the sun

a temple
not of stone but cloud
beyond the heart's roar
and all violence

outside the anvil-stunned domain
unfrenzied space

between the grains of change
blue permanence

one short step
to the good ground

the bite into bread again